Well I already broke one goal and that was writing every night!!!  Things are going fairly OK!  I haven't been 100% perfect; however, I can tell you I've done 100% better than I have in the past few months!  Normally I will sit at my desk and eat nothing but junk food and I am proud to admit that I have not done that at all this past week.  Tonight I had 1 piece of pizza and a bread stick and that is probably the worst thing I have had to eat all week.....I take that back...I did have 4 oreos the other night!  Unfortunately they were in my house so of course I had to eat them!!  I asked Kyle who a good trainer would be in Watertown so he referred me to someone and at first I was VERY leery because she is a female.  Now...before you go jumping to conclusions...I don't do well with female trainers because I tend to manipulate them.  When it starts getting a little tough I tell them I can't do anymore and they have me move to the next thing!!  Every male trainer I've had has said suck it up and keep going!  Also, I like the guy mentality in a gym such as sweat dripping, burping, swearing, being cocky etc.!  Anyway, I knew Kyle was aware of all of this so I called this person and I think she will be AWESOME!!  Not quite as great as Kyle but a close 2nd!  We are going to get together in the next couple of weeks and discuss a plan of action and then go from there!! 

Some have been asking me what I'm eating or what time of diet I'm doing and have asked if they can join.  I welcome any and all to partake.  The bonus is it's free!!  Meaning you don't have any membership fees, no packaged food fees etc.!!  The one thing I am working really hard on is telling myself it is not a diet because it ultimately is a lifestyle change.  Every diet I have been on in the past tend to fail because once it is over I go back to old eating habits which obviously results in weight gain and then some and then you try another diet because of course that last one didn't work since you gained all of your weight back and....well you see where this is going!!  So here is what I do:

First thing I do when my feet hit the floor in the morning is use the bathroom and then go eat breakfast.  I usually have 3 egg whites and a piece of fruit. Now I know some of you are saying...oh that won't work for you because you're never hungry in the morning.  Well I'm here to tell you that this is how I was too but once you do this you will be more than ready to eat once you wake up!!  Then 2-3 hours after that I eat oatmeal with protein powder and milk with a piece of fruit.  Then 2-3 hours after that I eat tuna, lettuce, spinach, 1 tsp. olive oil, and some pita chips...then 2-3 hours after that a protein bar and popcorn...then 2-3 hours after that more protein and a veggie and just continue until bed.  I always eat some form of protein before bed.  Usually cottage cheese or turkey.  It is important that you don't go longer than 3 hours after eating.  Like I said it is very structured and a lot of planning but this last week I can already tell I have more energy and I haven't even exercised yet!!

OK..I've rambled on long enough tonight.  I have my meals ready for tomorrow and I'm heading to bed.  I hope y'all had a GREAT weekend!

Love and Peace...Jvonne

A New Start

Well....for those of you crazy people that enjoy by blog...here we go again!!!  As you can see it has been 2 years since I blogged and obviously a lot has changed within those 2 years!!  Long story short...I'm still over weight!!  I have a feeling that will be with me my whole life; however, it is how I deal with it that will get me through.  I have decided to do this blog a little differently and not focus so much on the number and how much weight I've lot but yet how I'm feeling throughout this adventure as well as the ups, downs, feelings, emotions, and reasons behind the eating.  In other words, looking at this food addiction and wonder why in the hell it has consumed me!!!  Now, let me begin by throwing out some disclaimers!!  Remember...this is my blog, my feelings, and my thoughts!  I love any verbal feedback; however, PLEASE do not EVER tell me I shouldn't feel that way or you're beautiful just the way you are, or you're not addicted to food, or just try to eat a little bit of chocolate to fulfill your cravings!!!!  For those of you that don't know me, I'm an all or nothing type of person...hence...addiction!!  I envy those of you that can eat a miniature candy bar and feel content....NOT ME!!!!  I compare it to giving a half of a beer to an alcoholic and telling them that should satisfy your craving!!!  Oh it satisfied it all right as well as opened up a BEAST inside of me to just seek out more junk food.  Trust me, if it is not in my reach...I will make it in my reach!  Another thing is this is my blog; therefore, my spelling and grammatical mistakes!!!  One last thing is...the way I eat is the way I eat.  PLEASE don't criticize the food I consume or tell me I'm eating too much protein or certain things are gross.  If you don't like it, please don't do it then!!!  If you feel that this blog would help anyone you know within your life please feel free to pass it along.  It is still my dream and goal to help over weight people succeed in the future!!!  OK...with all of this being said here is the plan of my blog.  I will not be sharing my weight with you for a couple of reasons...one to be quite honest I don't know what it is!  I have a ball park figure but I'm very ashamed and embarrassed to step on a scale right now.  Also, as I mentioned earlier I don't want to focus on the number.  I think in the past I would get frustrated if I gained, barely lost anything, or didn't lose what I thought I should.  So...at some point I will share how much I've lost but it will not be the focus.  My main focus is to look at and discuss why I am overweight.  The obvious answer is because I take in too many calories and don't get rid of any of them through exercise!!  However, it goes beyond that!!  There are emotions, thoughts, and feelings that usually go behind my eating.  Some call it emotional eating...I call it addiction!  So...if you're still reading this...I commend you!!  Let's buckle our seat belts, put on our stretchy pants and enjoy the ride!!!

I will be writing nightly...some longer than others...but the goal is a nightly blog!  Tomorrow I will start dissecting what does this food addiction mean and look like as it applies to my life!  Again...any feedback is appreciated and know that I appreciate each and every one of you for being my cheer leader!!!

Love and Peace...Jvonne

Test

OK...I'm testing this out to see if those that want to follow my blog can get to it.  Please leave me a mesasge on my facebook post!!  If I get some responses I will continue :)