Holy cow....happy June everyone! Where in the world has the time gone. I hate to say this but before we know it we will be asking our loved ones what they would like for Christmas! Anyway, this weigh in was a gain. I gained .4 lbs and I'm not the least bit upset over it. I actually was quite pleased because I thought it would have been a bigger gain. We went camping with my family this weekend and camping isn't always so healthy!! I LOVE to eat and that is my problem! I wonder when and if the food obsession will ever leave. I'm sure it will become less but holy cow it gets ridiculous from time to time! I look forward to my future in that I will be able to help out others who are going through the same struggles. I am facebook friends with some of the former biggest loser contestants and it is fun to see how they struggle with the same things. I know they are not any different than I am but it's always nice to hear similar stories!
I am also very excited because I have my husband on board with me now. He continues to lose weight and continues to do well. We just got in from a walk and it's funny because in the past we both would have not gone because it was "chilly". When I mentioned going on a walk he was excited and eager to go versus trying to get out of it like we both normally would have done!
I have finally come to the conclusion that this is not a race and it will all happen within good time and I am OK with this. I look forward to the continued journey! I am going to scrap book my journey (don't laugh because I really am not creative!) so I am looking forward to seeing the changes!
I hope all of you are doing well. I challenge you to find a journey within your life and scrap book it as well to see your progress!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
May 25, 2010
Greetings to all!! Tonight is a bitter sweet night in that the finale was AWESOME for Biggest Loser but depressed because it is the finale!!! I am really not a T.V. watcher at all but I LOVE that show and never miss an episode! Anyway, talk about inspiration. They ALL looked wonderful and it is awesome to see how people can lose weight without any form of surgery. I think we jump to quick fixes way to often and we just need to be patient, work hard, cry, and rejoice in our victories! Trust me, I have work to do on some of those....such as patience!! It is getting better but I am constantly reminding myself of it takes time!!
My week was fairly decent. I lost 1.8 lbs for a total loss of 36 lbs. I am so proud of myself for continuing on because by now, in the past, I would have quit because it wasn't going fast enough. I know silly but true. I have finally accepted, I have always realized, that I want to be around for my son and I need to take care of me and my health. He deserves a FUN active mom not a mom who sits down because she doesn't have the energy.
My biggest struggle this week was food! Ahhhhh.....imagine that! Really....I was OBSESSED with food for the majority of the week. There were times when I thought I was losing it because all I could think about was ice cream, chocolate, anything that wasn't healthy. But....for the most part....I managed to do OK. I did indulge but did not go wild!
Overall, I feel good about my progress and how things are going. I am so happy to have been re inspired by people on the biggest loser. My challenge to you is to evaluate your life and look at ways you can reach out and inspire someone within their life. It doesn't have to be weight loss by the way!!
Take care and I'll be posting every Tuesday!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
My week was fairly decent. I lost 1.8 lbs for a total loss of 36 lbs. I am so proud of myself for continuing on because by now, in the past, I would have quit because it wasn't going fast enough. I know silly but true. I have finally accepted, I have always realized, that I want to be around for my son and I need to take care of me and my health. He deserves a FUN active mom not a mom who sits down because she doesn't have the energy.
My biggest struggle this week was food! Ahhhhh.....imagine that! Really....I was OBSESSED with food for the majority of the week. There were times when I thought I was losing it because all I could think about was ice cream, chocolate, anything that wasn't healthy. But....for the most part....I managed to do OK. I did indulge but did not go wild!
Overall, I feel good about my progress and how things are going. I am so happy to have been re inspired by people on the biggest loser. My challenge to you is to evaluate your life and look at ways you can reach out and inspire someone within their life. It doesn't have to be weight loss by the way!!
Take care and I'll be posting every Tuesday!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Thursday, May 20, 2010
May 20, 2010
OK...I know I have been horrible with this blog thing and I have to be honest....I really didn't think people read it!! I have had quite a few people tell me that they miss my blog so I thought I would try to get back on track with it. Ironically, I received a message from some random person on face book asking me to join her page regarding her weight loss journey so I did because I am always looking for other people to inspire me. Anyway, she was saying how she was hoping to be on the biggest loser and didn't make it so she sat back and reflected what she really wanted out of it. It is cool because she is doing everything that she could do on the biggest loser and that is hiring a personal trainer, sharing her progress for the world to see, posting pictures for the world to see, and meeting with a nutritionist and counselor. I thought...what a GREAT idea!!! So, I am going to keep up with sharing the journey with all of you. I will also post (hopefully this weekend) pictures! A good friend of mine keeps asking me if I have taken pictures and I always say no!! I know I need to take them because down the road I will look back and be shocked! There is already a picture from my brother's wedding that kills me every time I see it and I will NEVER be back at that weight of 317 lbs. Anyway, I do meet with a personal trainer once a week and go to weight watchers for my nutritional part. So....who needs to be on the biggest loser anyway!!!!
So the journey has been up and down since my last post. I have now lost a total of 34.2 lbs and weight 277.8 I believe. If you were to ask me today how I feel things are going I would tell you absolutely horrible and I am a health failure!! Today has been the crappiest eating day I have probably had since I started weight watchers 5 months ago. I have ate everything and anything and really had no desire to quit. I feel miserable which is probably a good thing and it is a nice reminder as to why I don't want to do that again! It's kind of like a person with a hangover who asks themselves why in the hell they went out and drank so much! Anyway, I know tomorrow is a new day and I look forward to a fresh start. I really do feel good about the progress I am making. I would be lying if I were to say I was happy with the pace because of course I would like to lose 5 lbs every week! I know that is not realistic and in order for it to stay off for good I need small losses but I become VERY impatient! My mother has also gotten back into weight watchers so it has been fun comparing things with her as well as our success!
I am still planning on doing the half marathon in January in Phoenix. I know it will be a HUGE challenge but my gosh if the biggest loser people can do marathons and one of them is still over 300 lbs there is NO reason I can't do a half! A friend of mine has already registered so I can't back out now because it was my idea!!
Alright...I am done rambling. I look forward to a new fresh day and I also look forward to continuing to share my journey with all of you! Please take special care of yourselves because we never know when things in our lives may change!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
So the journey has been up and down since my last post. I have now lost a total of 34.2 lbs and weight 277.8 I believe. If you were to ask me today how I feel things are going I would tell you absolutely horrible and I am a health failure!! Today has been the crappiest eating day I have probably had since I started weight watchers 5 months ago. I have ate everything and anything and really had no desire to quit. I feel miserable which is probably a good thing and it is a nice reminder as to why I don't want to do that again! It's kind of like a person with a hangover who asks themselves why in the hell they went out and drank so much! Anyway, I know tomorrow is a new day and I look forward to a fresh start. I really do feel good about the progress I am making. I would be lying if I were to say I was happy with the pace because of course I would like to lose 5 lbs every week! I know that is not realistic and in order for it to stay off for good I need small losses but I become VERY impatient! My mother has also gotten back into weight watchers so it has been fun comparing things with her as well as our success!
I am still planning on doing the half marathon in January in Phoenix. I know it will be a HUGE challenge but my gosh if the biggest loser people can do marathons and one of them is still over 300 lbs there is NO reason I can't do a half! A friend of mine has already registered so I can't back out now because it was my idea!!
Alright...I am done rambling. I look forward to a new fresh day and I also look forward to continuing to share my journey with all of you! Please take special care of yourselves because we never know when things in our lives may change!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Thursday, March 25, 2010
March 25, 2010
HOLY COW I haven't written a blog for a LONG time! Well things continue to be going well. I am on week 12 of weight watchers and so far I have lost 24 lbs. so I am averaging 2lbs a week which is VERY nice! I can honestly say that I feel good about this whole process which is a first. Now don't get me wrong...I certainly have my struggles. I don't know why but these past couple of weeks all I want to do is EAT! It is so weird! What is even more unusual about it, for myself anyway, is I don't care what I eat meaning I would sit down and eat a ton of watermelon, lettuce, oranges, and of course chocolate!!! NO I am not pregnant!!!! Anyway, I have been managing to get through it but it is not fun!
I think my biggest obstacle has been the workouts at this point. I have been struggling with the gym only for the mere fact of time. I am so tired so I just need to push myself to get there!
I have had a lot of people tell me how they wish they had my motivation and all I have to say is you can have it...you need to reach deep inside of yourself and find what motivates you. Mine was the fact that I had to watch my husband grieve, and continue to grieve, his mother's death due to cancer. We believe it started in the lungs as she was a HEAVY smoker and I REFUSE to have my son watch me die because I didn't take care of my health and remained overweight and unhealthy. So...find what your drive is and run with it!!!
Well...I am closing here. I will try to be more active with my blog!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
I think my biggest obstacle has been the workouts at this point. I have been struggling with the gym only for the mere fact of time. I am so tired so I just need to push myself to get there!
I have had a lot of people tell me how they wish they had my motivation and all I have to say is you can have it...you need to reach deep inside of yourself and find what motivates you. Mine was the fact that I had to watch my husband grieve, and continue to grieve, his mother's death due to cancer. We believe it started in the lungs as she was a HEAVY smoker and I REFUSE to have my son watch me die because I didn't take care of my health and remained overweight and unhealthy. So...find what your drive is and run with it!!!
Well...I am closing here. I will try to be more active with my blog!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
March 16, 2010
Happy St. Patricks Eve!!! I hope this finds everyone doing well. I don't know about anyone else but I LOVED seeing the sun today!!! Things for the most part are going well. I had my 10th weigh in today and lost .4 lbs. At first I was rather bummed; however, I realized that it is better than a gain and the last 8 weigh ins I have lost rather decent numbers so I can't expect it every day!!! Also, it was a nice reminder to not get too comfortable! I think we all know how that goes! So, with that I will take the loss with pride and continue to work hard for future losses!
I read the book Believe it, Be it by Ali Vincent this weekend and I give it 80 thumbs up! I think EVERY female should read it regardless if you have weight to lose or not. I felt that it was very powerful and motivating for life in general. So, I encourage you to look into buying it. I got mine off of Amazon for a very low price. I know I was extremely motivated to follow my dream. I foresee one year from now, having my own little business and I CAN'T wait! Another thing that has been powerful for me to work hard is a current client of mine. He is 66 years old and I just love him. He is one of the most determined and hardest worker I have met in a long time. He told the group today....you are all young...get your shit together today and follow your hearts and live your dream! I LOVE IT!!!
So, with that I am going to challenge you to find what your dream is...maybe it is a job, running a race, getting out of debt, being a better person etc. and Believe It and Be It!!!!
Love and Peace to all...Jvonne
I read the book Believe it, Be it by Ali Vincent this weekend and I give it 80 thumbs up! I think EVERY female should read it regardless if you have weight to lose or not. I felt that it was very powerful and motivating for life in general. So, I encourage you to look into buying it. I got mine off of Amazon for a very low price. I know I was extremely motivated to follow my dream. I foresee one year from now, having my own little business and I CAN'T wait! Another thing that has been powerful for me to work hard is a current client of mine. He is 66 years old and I just love him. He is one of the most determined and hardest worker I have met in a long time. He told the group today....you are all young...get your shit together today and follow your hearts and live your dream! I LOVE IT!!!
So, with that I am going to challenge you to find what your dream is...maybe it is a job, running a race, getting out of debt, being a better person etc. and Believe It and Be It!!!!
Love and Peace to all...Jvonne
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
March 9, 2009
Greetings from Rainy South Dakota! UGH...I know it is better than snow and I know the rain is helping melt the snow but ENOUGH already! I WANT SUN!!!
OK...now that I got that out of my system! Things continue to be going well. I had my 9Th weigh in and lost another 2 pounds. So...I have now lost 20.2 lbs. I was so happy!! I am perfectly fine losing 2 lbs a week!! Although some day it would be nice to jump on the scale and see a 12 lb loss...oh wait....I'm dreaming again!! I know I've said this before but I'm really excited about this. This last weekend I was at the gym and there were a couple of times I wanted to slow down or stop and I would just keep telling myself to remember my dream and that is all it took.
HOWEVER, I know there always has to be a however!!! I did struggle this last Thursday. I went to Sioux Falls to meet with the certification board and after that I went shopping. I was so excited to go clothes shopping...which by the way is abnormal! Well anyway, I went to Lane Bryant and had a melt down. I am not sure how many of you shop there but just in case you have never realized this...their sizes are not true sizes!!! So...I normally wear a 26 and the 26's I wear now are becoming baggy. So I thought I would either go down a size or be close to going down a size. Ummmm....the 26's wouldn't even fit me! I was talking to my husband about this and he said...Jvonne...you go through this every time you go there...when will you learn. Well apparently NEVER!!! I knew going in that they aren't the same but I still put myself through thinking maybe this time it would be different!!! Anyway, at that point I almost said screw it but fortunately some power greater than myself intervened and I came back to reality! I don't understand Lane Bryant at all. WHY do they bring clothes in that are for size 6 -10 people but make them bigger! Did y'all know that leggings and long shirts are coming back? Yah...well not to be mean but there was an employee in there wearing them who should not be wearing them. UGH...we may be fat but don't dress us like we are losing our minds people!!! If I were a designer I would pursue creating larger clothes that are trendy but yet work for larger people!
So...onto my certification. I found out today that they have denied my request; however, I can let my certification lapse and then just reapply. Doesn't make a lot of sense to me other than that will give them an extra $50!!! So, I think I should be good to go.
Well...I need to do a couple of things before biggest loser starts. I hope y'all are doing well and remember to take care of yourselves and do something positive for you because you are worth it!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
OK...now that I got that out of my system! Things continue to be going well. I had my 9Th weigh in and lost another 2 pounds. So...I have now lost 20.2 lbs. I was so happy!! I am perfectly fine losing 2 lbs a week!! Although some day it would be nice to jump on the scale and see a 12 lb loss...oh wait....I'm dreaming again!! I know I've said this before but I'm really excited about this. This last weekend I was at the gym and there were a couple of times I wanted to slow down or stop and I would just keep telling myself to remember my dream and that is all it took.
HOWEVER, I know there always has to be a however!!! I did struggle this last Thursday. I went to Sioux Falls to meet with the certification board and after that I went shopping. I was so excited to go clothes shopping...which by the way is abnormal! Well anyway, I went to Lane Bryant and had a melt down. I am not sure how many of you shop there but just in case you have never realized this...their sizes are not true sizes!!! So...I normally wear a 26 and the 26's I wear now are becoming baggy. So I thought I would either go down a size or be close to going down a size. Ummmm....the 26's wouldn't even fit me! I was talking to my husband about this and he said...Jvonne...you go through this every time you go there...when will you learn. Well apparently NEVER!!! I knew going in that they aren't the same but I still put myself through thinking maybe this time it would be different!!! Anyway, at that point I almost said screw it but fortunately some power greater than myself intervened and I came back to reality! I don't understand Lane Bryant at all. WHY do they bring clothes in that are for size 6 -10 people but make them bigger! Did y'all know that leggings and long shirts are coming back? Yah...well not to be mean but there was an employee in there wearing them who should not be wearing them. UGH...we may be fat but don't dress us like we are losing our minds people!!! If I were a designer I would pursue creating larger clothes that are trendy but yet work for larger people!
So...onto my certification. I found out today that they have denied my request; however, I can let my certification lapse and then just reapply. Doesn't make a lot of sense to me other than that will give them an extra $50!!! So, I think I should be good to go.
Well...I need to do a couple of things before biggest loser starts. I hope y'all are doing well and remember to take care of yourselves and do something positive for you because you are worth it!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
March 3, 2009
Greetings! I hope this finds you doing well. So I had my 8th weigh in yesterday and lost another 2 pounds. So I have lost 18.2 total. It feels so good. I think this is the first time I can ever remember that I have consistently lost and haven't given up yet! Trust me...I have been at this for a LONG time! I can remember being in grade school going up to the local gym with my mom doing aerobics to Zanadoo! Kids in grade school should not have to go through that!
So....I've decided to work on pursuing a dream I have had for at least the last 12 years....and that is to start working on my personal training certification and begin a program for overweight people. Yes I am being discriminatory but that is how it is! I have had two wonderful trainers in my past and I wouldn't trade them for the world; however the one thing they can't relate to is the issue with food. They would just say well just don't eat it!!! OH MY if it was only that easy!!! I feel really good about this and I'm actually VERY excited. The other thing I will incorporate will be group support as well as possible group exercise. I don't know where I will start this but within the next year it will be going. It may only start with 1 or 2 people but that is a start! I have so other irons in the fire or maybe I should say thoughts in the fire!! I have had a few dreams for at least 10 years and it is time to go after them. I tell my clients to not sit around and think about it but just do it....well it's time I listen to myself and do the same!
I am going to end here....take special care of yourselves!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
So....I've decided to work on pursuing a dream I have had for at least the last 12 years....and that is to start working on my personal training certification and begin a program for overweight people. Yes I am being discriminatory but that is how it is! I have had two wonderful trainers in my past and I wouldn't trade them for the world; however the one thing they can't relate to is the issue with food. They would just say well just don't eat it!!! OH MY if it was only that easy!!! I feel really good about this and I'm actually VERY excited. The other thing I will incorporate will be group support as well as possible group exercise. I don't know where I will start this but within the next year it will be going. It may only start with 1 or 2 people but that is a start! I have so other irons in the fire or maybe I should say thoughts in the fire!! I have had a few dreams for at least 10 years and it is time to go after them. I tell my clients to not sit around and think about it but just do it....well it's time I listen to myself and do the same!
I am going to end here....take special care of yourselves!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
February 23, 2010
Happy Wednesday to all!!! Man what a week it has been so far. First of all the good news is I hit my 5% goal!!!! I have lost a total of 16.2 lbs...I was so happy!!!
I have had a hard week so I really wasn't expecting a big loss if any. I stayed within my point range and didn't use all of my extra points; however, I have been under stress and sadness so I really wasn't sure how it was going to go. I also worked out only one time within the last week so that wasn't going for me either! Anyway, none the less something went well and right because I lost!
So.....my mind was playing crazy tricks on me this past week! I haven't had this for quite some time but Monday was probably the hardest. For those of you that don't know I lost a friend a few days ago to suicide. I was hoping to be able to get Tuesday off for the funeral but was unable to due to policies etc. since I'm new to my job. So....on Monday....I had a "screw it" attitude. My mind was trying to get me to go to McDonalds! I could taste the french fries, the chocolate shake and cookies!!! So for about 15 minutes I went back and forth with this torture. I finally convinced myself to go to Subway. I thought....good this will be easier!!! Oh NO....the whole way to Subway I was telling myself to get pizza and they have cookies there....YUMMY! Anyway, this conversation went on for about 10 minutes so I went in hoping to just hurry up and order and get out to avoid temptations but no they were busy so there I stood waiting and allowing the war to continue. I joked with some and told them if anyone could have read my mind I would have been locked up!!! BUT....I ordered healthy and walked out feeling good that I made it through! I don't care to go through that for quite some time again!
So....my goal for this week is to workout at least 3 times before my next weigh in! I know 3 doesn't sound like a lot but with my schedule it's a miracle!
I better get back to work...I hope y'all have a safe rest of your week. PLEASE take special care of yourself and if you need help with ANYTHING reach out. Life is way too short to take for granted and I don't want to lose any more friends.
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
I have had a hard week so I really wasn't expecting a big loss if any. I stayed within my point range and didn't use all of my extra points; however, I have been under stress and sadness so I really wasn't sure how it was going to go. I also worked out only one time within the last week so that wasn't going for me either! Anyway, none the less something went well and right because I lost!
So.....my mind was playing crazy tricks on me this past week! I haven't had this for quite some time but Monday was probably the hardest. For those of you that don't know I lost a friend a few days ago to suicide. I was hoping to be able to get Tuesday off for the funeral but was unable to due to policies etc. since I'm new to my job. So....on Monday....I had a "screw it" attitude. My mind was trying to get me to go to McDonalds! I could taste the french fries, the chocolate shake and cookies!!! So for about 15 minutes I went back and forth with this torture. I finally convinced myself to go to Subway. I thought....good this will be easier!!! Oh NO....the whole way to Subway I was telling myself to get pizza and they have cookies there....YUMMY! Anyway, this conversation went on for about 10 minutes so I went in hoping to just hurry up and order and get out to avoid temptations but no they were busy so there I stood waiting and allowing the war to continue. I joked with some and told them if anyone could have read my mind I would have been locked up!!! BUT....I ordered healthy and walked out feeling good that I made it through! I don't care to go through that for quite some time again!
So....my goal for this week is to workout at least 3 times before my next weigh in! I know 3 doesn't sound like a lot but with my schedule it's a miracle!
I better get back to work...I hope y'all have a safe rest of your week. PLEASE take special care of yourself and if you need help with ANYTHING reach out. Life is way too short to take for granted and I don't want to lose any more friends.
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Friday, February 19, 2010
February 19, 2010
Happy Friday night! I hope this finds y'all doing well. Things have been going well for me. I am feeling good about myself as well as the things I am doing for myself. I'm not sure if I posted this but I have decided that for every 10 lbs that I lose I am going to reward myself with a nonfood reward. So, I am mentally creating a list of everything I would like! With the first 10 lbs I got my nails done and love them! I think with my next 10 lbs...of which I have a little over 6 to go I am going to get a facial! I have only had one and LOVED it! One of the things I want is a pedicure but I'll probably have to lose 50 lbs before that will happen with the weather the way it is!
My eating has been going well for the most part. I obviously have my days but who doesn't! I had sent my leader an email regarding some stuff and she sent some very motivational words back my way. So...whenever I need a little nudge I read that email! It's always nice getting motivational nudges! I think that is what drives us through life!
So...WW is having a role model competition. I don't know a lot about it but my leader is going to work on getting me some info. I think I'm going to apply....what do I have to lose!!!
Well...I am going to end here. I hope y'all have a wonderful weekend. Remember to take care of yourselves!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
My eating has been going well for the most part. I obviously have my days but who doesn't! I had sent my leader an email regarding some stuff and she sent some very motivational words back my way. So...whenever I need a little nudge I read that email! It's always nice getting motivational nudges! I think that is what drives us through life!
So...WW is having a role model competition. I don't know a lot about it but my leader is going to work on getting me some info. I think I'm going to apply....what do I have to lose!!!
Well...I am going to end here. I hope y'all have a wonderful weekend. Remember to take care of yourselves!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
February 16, 2010
I am not writing much at all due to having a lovely cold and I feel like my head needs to pop!!! Anyway, I did want to share that I lost 1.4 lbs this week...YAY! I was so happy. Hopefully at my weigh in next week I will hit my 5%!!!
I hope y'all are enjoying the olympics!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
I hope y'all are enjoying the olympics!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Sunday, February 14, 2010
February 14, 2010
Happy Valentines Day to all of you!!! OK...to all of my single friends....don't worry...I really don't care for this day either and I'm married!!! The only reason I say that is because I think it is over rated and I don't want my husband or friends for that matter to feel obligated to show me that he loves me. Although, I will say, I was pleasantly surprised today by my husband. I am staying in Aberdeen due to being on call and I didn't think I would get to see my husband and son due to the weather. Around 11:15 am I heard this boys voice in the hall and thought to myself...that sounds like Mason....I then smiled and thought it was some other little boy. Well the next thing I know someone is knocking on my door. There are a lot of kids in this hotel so I just figured they got the wrong room...well they kept knocking so I finally went and looked and there stood my little boy and lovely husband. I was almost crying!!! So, needless to say I didn't go workout like I was going to! But, it was well worth skipping in order to spend time with my family. You really don't realize what you have until you don't get to be around them for a period of time!
So, on to my week. I know I say this every week but I will be surprised if I lose this week! I'm being serious this time!!! I feel like I have been out of control and I have used almost all of my extra points...I think I have 1 to spare if that. Today was no exception. It's weird because it is still way better than I normally would have done in the past but it is still not good! I had some chocolates, a little bit of ice cream, bread and butter!!! YUMMY!!! I know it's Valentine's Day but unfortunately the scale doesn't care! I am going to go to aerobics tomorrow night so maybe that will help a little!!! I guess we will see what Tuesday brings! I just feel so hungry this week. I'm sure it is psychological but who knows. My leader told us to ask ourselves if we were hungry would we eat an apple, orange or veggies, etc. Obviously if we answer no then we are looking for comfort food or we really aren't hungry but this week the answer has been yes 90% of the time!!! Oh this whole weight loss thing is bizarre!!
Well I hope y'all have a great week. Sounds like it is supposed to be cold but at least the sun might come out!!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
So, on to my week. I know I say this every week but I will be surprised if I lose this week! I'm being serious this time!!! I feel like I have been out of control and I have used almost all of my extra points...I think I have 1 to spare if that. Today was no exception. It's weird because it is still way better than I normally would have done in the past but it is still not good! I had some chocolates, a little bit of ice cream, bread and butter!!! YUMMY!!! I know it's Valentine's Day but unfortunately the scale doesn't care! I am going to go to aerobics tomorrow night so maybe that will help a little!!! I guess we will see what Tuesday brings! I just feel so hungry this week. I'm sure it is psychological but who knows. My leader told us to ask ourselves if we were hungry would we eat an apple, orange or veggies, etc. Obviously if we answer no then we are looking for comfort food or we really aren't hungry but this week the answer has been yes 90% of the time!!! Oh this whole weight loss thing is bizarre!!
Well I hope y'all have a great week. Sounds like it is supposed to be cold but at least the sun might come out!!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Thursday, February 11, 2010
February 11, 2010
Greetings to all! Sorry I haven't posted for awhile but when I think about it, it is late and I don't want to get on the computer!
Things have been going well up until tonight! First of all last week I lost 2.4 lbs for a total loss of 12 lbs. I was so shocked and happy! Tonight I am staying in Aberdeen and I ordered a chicken Caesar salad minus the dressing and had them deliver it to my room...well this time they brought bread and let me tell you it is to die for! I ate it ALL! I was so incredibly stuffed after the bread I couldn't eat the salad! UGH...bread is such a weakness for me. Normally they don't serve bread with the salad so I didn't think about it. I would have honestly asked them to keep it b/c I know I would have ate it! BUTTTTTT.....I didn't send it back and ate it! It was really good but I wished I wouldn't have ate it all! Oh well...this too shall pass!
Yesterday I started Jillian's detoxing system and so far it seems to be going OK. I have certainly noticed my bathroom visits picking up!!!
I haven't exercised for a few days so I plan on hitting up the Y tomorrow. I think that will make me feel better. It's so funny how I just go through spurts of not really caring about food to I could eat everything and anything in front of me!! I have also learned...no accepted...that I can no longer buy the 1 pt bars from WW. They are to DIE for and unfortunately I can't eat just 1 or 2! So, Becky...don't let me buy them!!!! I will get extra fruit chews!
Alright...I have gotten sucked into Housewives of Orange County so I'm going to watch that! It's nice to dream!
Take care and keep praying for spring!
Love and Peace to all...Jvonne
Things have been going well up until tonight! First of all last week I lost 2.4 lbs for a total loss of 12 lbs. I was so shocked and happy! Tonight I am staying in Aberdeen and I ordered a chicken Caesar salad minus the dressing and had them deliver it to my room...well this time they brought bread and let me tell you it is to die for! I ate it ALL! I was so incredibly stuffed after the bread I couldn't eat the salad! UGH...bread is such a weakness for me. Normally they don't serve bread with the salad so I didn't think about it. I would have honestly asked them to keep it b/c I know I would have ate it! BUTTTTTT.....I didn't send it back and ate it! It was really good but I wished I wouldn't have ate it all! Oh well...this too shall pass!
Yesterday I started Jillian's detoxing system and so far it seems to be going OK. I have certainly noticed my bathroom visits picking up!!!
I haven't exercised for a few days so I plan on hitting up the Y tomorrow. I think that will make me feel better. It's so funny how I just go through spurts of not really caring about food to I could eat everything and anything in front of me!! I have also learned...no accepted...that I can no longer buy the 1 pt bars from WW. They are to DIE for and unfortunately I can't eat just 1 or 2! So, Becky...don't let me buy them!!!! I will get extra fruit chews!
Alright...I have gotten sucked into Housewives of Orange County so I'm going to watch that! It's nice to dream!
Take care and keep praying for spring!
Love and Peace to all...Jvonne
Monday, February 8, 2010
February 8, 2010
WOW...I haven't wrote anything for one whole week! YIKES....I need to pick it up! It seems like when I thought about writing I got busy with something else or I didn't want to get off of Itunes or facebook!!! Anyway...here I am now!
This week has gone OK. I must admit I am nervous about the weigh in tomorrow. I know I say that every week but this week just feels and seems different. I looked back over my food journal and I have stayed within my points, to the best of my knowledge anyway, but it wasn't always the healthiest food! I also feel rather bloated....so with all of that being said I guess we will see what happens. I'm .4 lbs from 10 lbs lost so hopefully I can get that!
I plan on going to the gym tonight so maybe that will help with my attitude! Brian has started WW with me as well so I'm very excited about that. He has done so good in the last few days! I am so proud of him! I look forward to the day that we are both happy with the way we look and that we feel good about ourselves!
Well...I better get going. I hope y'all have fabulous week. For those of us in SD hang in there...spring has got to be here soon!!!
Love and Peace to all...Jvonne
This week has gone OK. I must admit I am nervous about the weigh in tomorrow. I know I say that every week but this week just feels and seems different. I looked back over my food journal and I have stayed within my points, to the best of my knowledge anyway, but it wasn't always the healthiest food! I also feel rather bloated....so with all of that being said I guess we will see what happens. I'm .4 lbs from 10 lbs lost so hopefully I can get that!
I plan on going to the gym tonight so maybe that will help with my attitude! Brian has started WW with me as well so I'm very excited about that. He has done so good in the last few days! I am so proud of him! I look forward to the day that we are both happy with the way we look and that we feel good about ourselves!
Well...I better get going. I hope y'all have fabulous week. For those of us in SD hang in there...spring has got to be here soon!!!
Love and Peace to all...Jvonne
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
February 2, 2010
Well the good news is....I lost 1.6 pounds this week....YAY!!!! I guess the fat girl gone wild on the cake wasn't so wild!!!
The bad news is....I'm under a lot of stress right now which usually doesn't end good! It is a long, confusing story but the moral of the story is my re-certification for my job is at jeopardy due to not taking a certain class. I have written a letter asking for an extension but it doesn't sound hopeful...at least in my eyes! I hope to know more the end of this month which makes things very stressful and unknown. With that being said...there comes a lot of stress. Tonight I wanted to just go crazy and eat a huge cheese burger with a large french fry.....BUT....I didn't!!! It's funny what I crave because prior to me trying to be healthy a large cheese burger and fries would have been the last thing I would have chosen! I did break down and eat some Reese's Pieces and they were worth every single point! I had to use one extra point so I figure I didn't do too bad!
I really am enjoying the Weight Watchers meetings this go around. I have been to several other WW meetings and this one is rather interactive and that is what I enjoy! It's nice to know you aren't alone on this journey and it's also nice to get feedback from others!
Well...the Biggest Loser is about to start so I'm going to end here. I hope y'all are staying healthy and doing well.
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
The bad news is....I'm under a lot of stress right now which usually doesn't end good! It is a long, confusing story but the moral of the story is my re-certification for my job is at jeopardy due to not taking a certain class. I have written a letter asking for an extension but it doesn't sound hopeful...at least in my eyes! I hope to know more the end of this month which makes things very stressful and unknown. With that being said...there comes a lot of stress. Tonight I wanted to just go crazy and eat a huge cheese burger with a large french fry.....BUT....I didn't!!! It's funny what I crave because prior to me trying to be healthy a large cheese burger and fries would have been the last thing I would have chosen! I did break down and eat some Reese's Pieces and they were worth every single point! I had to use one extra point so I figure I didn't do too bad!
I really am enjoying the Weight Watchers meetings this go around. I have been to several other WW meetings and this one is rather interactive and that is what I enjoy! It's nice to know you aren't alone on this journey and it's also nice to get feedback from others!
Well...the Biggest Loser is about to start so I'm going to end here. I hope y'all are staying healthy and doing well.
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Monday, February 1, 2010
February 1, 2010
Holy Cow...can you believe it's February already! It's funny because there is part of me that thinks "Wow it's February already" and then another part that says "Wow...it's only February"!!! I don't know about anyone else but this winter feels like it is taking forever! Oh well, I guess we don't have control over mother nature!
Well...I have decided to quit putting the day number on here because I have finally realized and accepted that this whole weight loss thing isn't a matter of days it's a matter of a life time! So, with that I will only be putting the date now!
Things have been going OK. We had Mason's birthday party this weekend and I felt like a fat girl gone wild with the cake. I did very well in the beginning but before the weekend was done and over I had like 3 pieces!! I initially was going to through the leftovers out; however, I felt guilty for throwing it away! So hopefully I didn't do too much damage for tomorrows weigh in. However, it is what it is and I will be OK!
I went to the YMCA tonight and took an aerobics class with Carol....FUN!!! She is a wonderful, amazing lady and I encourage all of you from Aberdeen to give her a try! I plan on going back on Wed. night.
Well...I hope y'all have a great night. I will write tomorrow to give you the weight update!!
Take care!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
Well...I have decided to quit putting the day number on here because I have finally realized and accepted that this whole weight loss thing isn't a matter of days it's a matter of a life time! So, with that I will only be putting the date now!
Things have been going OK. We had Mason's birthday party this weekend and I felt like a fat girl gone wild with the cake. I did very well in the beginning but before the weekend was done and over I had like 3 pieces!! I initially was going to through the leftovers out; however, I felt guilty for throwing it away! So hopefully I didn't do too much damage for tomorrows weigh in. However, it is what it is and I will be OK!
I went to the YMCA tonight and took an aerobics class with Carol....FUN!!! She is a wonderful, amazing lady and I encourage all of you from Aberdeen to give her a try! I plan on going back on Wed. night.
Well...I hope y'all have a great night. I will write tomorrow to give you the weight update!!
Take care!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Day 21 - January 26, 2010
Well I must have done great with my eating over the weekend because I lost 4.4 pounds!!! YAY for me!!! I was actually quite surprised. I truly was expecting to either maintain or gain a little bit because I didn't know exactly how many points I had been consuming! I was telling a couple of the WW leaders this and they were asking me if I wasn't on WW would I have ate what I ate this weekend. I said of course not...I would have had greasy food and desserts!! So, like they said, I made progress right there!
It's funny how in my line of work we talk to our clients about the fact that watching or attending sporting events could be difficult in the beginning esp. if they associate drinking or using drugs during these events...well I discovered on Sunday that food was the same way! The whole time we were watching the game I kept thinking we needed nachos and cookies etc. It's weird how our brains play tricks on us.
Well...nothing really more to report! I hope y'all are enjoying this nice cold weather! I am praying hard for warm weather!! Have a GREAT week!!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
It's funny how in my line of work we talk to our clients about the fact that watching or attending sporting events could be difficult in the beginning esp. if they associate drinking or using drugs during these events...well I discovered on Sunday that food was the same way! The whole time we were watching the game I kept thinking we needed nachos and cookies etc. It's weird how our brains play tricks on us.
Well...nothing really more to report! I hope y'all are enjoying this nice cold weather! I am praying hard for warm weather!! Have a GREAT week!!
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Day 18 - January 23, 2010
Well my mood has certainly improved; however, I'm still frustrated with the stupid weather. Here they talk about this stupid winter storm that is going to be horrible and travel will be impossible etc...so we decided not to go to Pierre and celebrate my step-dads 50th birthday as well as Christmas with my family. Well...guess what....it is Saturday night at 9:30pm and I'm still waiting for the damn storm! UGH!! Why do they even invest in all of the technology!! OK....I'm done now with the weather!
I am very happy that Brian and Mason come to Aberdeen to stay with me though. I stayed in town in case the weather did get bad b/c I don't have vacation time yet so I can't afford to get snowed in somewhere! Anyway, they have been fun! We have been swimming quite a bit. I can't believe how out of shape I am! I swam some laps and wanted to die! I also did some water aerobics and couldn't believe that I used to teach! There is no way I could do that now! Eating wise is also going OK; however, it is really difficult to eat out and figure out the points! I think I have done OK but I guess we will see on Tuesday. I have been making healthy choices so I guess that is all that matters!
I hope y'all are doing OK. Take care and keep on taking care of yourself!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
I am very happy that Brian and Mason come to Aberdeen to stay with me though. I stayed in town in case the weather did get bad b/c I don't have vacation time yet so I can't afford to get snowed in somewhere! Anyway, they have been fun! We have been swimming quite a bit. I can't believe how out of shape I am! I swam some laps and wanted to die! I also did some water aerobics and couldn't believe that I used to teach! There is no way I could do that now! Eating wise is also going OK; however, it is really difficult to eat out and figure out the points! I think I have done OK but I guess we will see on Tuesday. I have been making healthy choices so I guess that is all that matters!
I hope y'all are doing OK. Take care and keep on taking care of yourself!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Day 16 - January 21, 2010
Well things are going OK....I say that with a lot of reluctance! I have been rather stressed out due to the stupid weather as well as some other factors and all I want to do is eat. UGH. I did end up using 11 of my extra points and I am disappointed in myself but I guess that is why they are there. It's crazy how when you get in a mood like this when you truly just don't give a shit. I know tomorrow will be a new day and I will make it through but until then...I will remain on my pity pot!
I wonder if skinny people ever experience stuff like this? I'm sure they have similar experiences but I wonder what theirs is like!!
OK...I'm going to close here because I don't want to bring everyone down with me!!!
Take care and I will be more positive next time!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
I wonder if skinny people ever experience stuff like this? I'm sure they have similar experiences but I wonder what theirs is like!!
OK...I'm going to close here because I don't want to bring everyone down with me!!!
Take care and I will be more positive next time!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Day 14 - January 19, 2010
Well today was the dreaded weigh in day and it turned out GREAT. I had lost 4.2 lbs! I was pleasantly surprised and happy! I have to be honest...I was quite nervous just because last week was kind of a let down! Our topic today was on being active and even though I know the key to this whole thing is not only diet but also exercise it was quite motivating!
It's funny because I was at the grocery store tonight and in my mind I thought I deserved a reward because I did so well today. Well keep in mind my rewards have always been food! So, I decided I would get something I enjoy! I have never spent so much time looking at points on candy to realize there really isn't a good candy!! I was happy that I took the time to look into it versus buying it impulsively; however, I was quite disappointed that I couldn't find a good candy!!!!!!!!!!
I have said this over and over but I find healthy eating to be a lot of work! There is so much planning that needs to take place so I don't just give in and eat whatever is there. One of my co-workers was so nice today. She wanted to bake so she took it upon herself to look up a weight watchers cookie recipe. She told us that she wanted to bring a treat but she knew that a bunch of us were trying so hard so she wanted to bring something we could all eat! It's nice to work at a place like that!
Well...I'm going to end here. I'm watching Biggest Loser right now and for those of you that watch it...Jillian is on a role so I need to listen!! Maybe she should come and talk to some of our clients!!!!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
It's funny because I was at the grocery store tonight and in my mind I thought I deserved a reward because I did so well today. Well keep in mind my rewards have always been food! So, I decided I would get something I enjoy! I have never spent so much time looking at points on candy to realize there really isn't a good candy!! I was happy that I took the time to look into it versus buying it impulsively; however, I was quite disappointed that I couldn't find a good candy!!!!!!!!!!
I have said this over and over but I find healthy eating to be a lot of work! There is so much planning that needs to take place so I don't just give in and eat whatever is there. One of my co-workers was so nice today. She wanted to bake so she took it upon herself to look up a weight watchers cookie recipe. She told us that she wanted to bring a treat but she knew that a bunch of us were trying so hard so she wanted to bring something we could all eat! It's nice to work at a place like that!
Well...I'm going to end here. I'm watching Biggest Loser right now and for those of you that watch it...Jillian is on a role so I need to listen!! Maybe she should come and talk to some of our clients!!!!
Love and Peace to all.....Jvonne
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Day 12 - January 17, 2010
Well...not a whole lot to share regarding these past two days! I have noticed that there are times when the "voices" get stronger and then other times it's easy as can be!!! I prefer the easy voices versus the hard!!! I have been staying within my point range and actually am starting to feel somewhat satisfied! It's amazing how your body goes through so many things when you eat horrible and then it goes through a ton of other things when you try to start eating well!!
I finally made it to the gym tonight for the first time in 2 1/2 months and it felt GREAT! As I was getting ready to leave my former personal trainer came in and it was great to see him as well. It was kind of another nice motivator!!
Weigh in takes place in 2 more days...let's hope this week goes better!!
I'm off to bed.....:)
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
I finally made it to the gym tonight for the first time in 2 1/2 months and it felt GREAT! As I was getting ready to leave my former personal trainer came in and it was great to see him as well. It was kind of another nice motivator!!
Weigh in takes place in 2 more days...let's hope this week goes better!!
I'm off to bed.....:)
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
Friday, January 15, 2010
Day 10 - January 15, 2010
Carrots are my friend...Carrots are my friend...Carrots are my friend! I figure if I tell myself this over and over the "bad" voices will go away! I stopped at subway this evening and they had just taken cookies out of the oven...OMG did I just go into dream land right there!! It was horrible...BUT...good news...I didn't cave even though they were trying to sell some to me!! I think it should be illegal to sell cookies at subway!!
I have to share a funny dream! So I woke up this morning in a panic because I had a dream that I had gone out to eat and we had all just went crazy with food. I remember we ate cheeseburgers and a ton of other stuff. The funny thing is it was all greasy, fried food and if I were to go on a binge it certainly wouldn't be that!! Anyway, I woke up thinking it was real and I had used all my points and wasn't sure what I was going to do today etc. I finally woke up enough to realize it was a bad dream!! So would this be considered a "using" dream!!!!
Really nothing else too exciting to report. Finally hitting the gym tomorrow and I'm excited!!! I hope you all have a WONDERFUL weekend and when times get tough or it doesn't seem like we are getting what we want just stop and think about all of those poor souls in Haiti.
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
PS...so this weekend is the big half marathon in Phoenix and my sister in law is partaking for the 2nd year in a row. Anyway, my good friend Kelcy and I are going to shoot for that next year...no...we ARE going to do it next year! Anyone care to join us? We will have a BLAST!!!
I have to share a funny dream! So I woke up this morning in a panic because I had a dream that I had gone out to eat and we had all just went crazy with food. I remember we ate cheeseburgers and a ton of other stuff. The funny thing is it was all greasy, fried food and if I were to go on a binge it certainly wouldn't be that!! Anyway, I woke up thinking it was real and I had used all my points and wasn't sure what I was going to do today etc. I finally woke up enough to realize it was a bad dream!! So would this be considered a "using" dream!!!!
Really nothing else too exciting to report. Finally hitting the gym tomorrow and I'm excited!!! I hope you all have a WONDERFUL weekend and when times get tough or it doesn't seem like we are getting what we want just stop and think about all of those poor souls in Haiti.
Love and Peace to all....Jvonne
PS...so this weekend is the big half marathon in Phoenix and my sister in law is partaking for the 2nd year in a row. Anyway, my good friend Kelcy and I are going to shoot for that next year...no...we ARE going to do it next year! Anyone care to join us? We will have a BLAST!!!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Day 9 - January 14, 2010
Good Evening to all!! I apologize for you faithful followers for missing an evening but I was frustrated, irritated, and just plain tired and crabby last night!!! Yesterday started out fairly well with eating and then after work it all went to hell in a hand basket!! For those of you that don't know I am currently commuting from Watertown to Aberdeen for work which is 100 miles one way. At first I really didn't mind the drive at all; however, it is now a drag!!! So, I stopped at the gas station and grabbed a soda and was also STARVING...mistake number 1!! I grabbed a chex mix thing and a soda and went up to pay and as I was paying looked over and saw these cookies and grabbed one of those too! I ate it all on the way home and honestly can say I didn't even enjoy it 100%. I'd be lying if I didn't enjoy it at all but not as much as I had wanted to! I was still ok because I had 35 extra points for the week; however, I really didn't want to use them!!! It's crazy how you impulsively act!! Unfortunately...it didn't stop there!!! We went to Guadalaraja's for supper and I actually did ok there. I had a chicken taco with some spanish rice and about 20 chips. Again, I stayed in my point range for the day; however, I had used the rest of them on this meal so I was hungry but the nights end!!! Someday, I will get this down!!
Today went MUCH better!!! I was so happy to have such a wonderful supper at home. For those of you that don't know me that well we are unfortunately ones that eat out a lot! So, it was a VERY nice treat to eat at home and I look forward to doing that a lot more often. We have a program at work called smart movers to where they have you fast and check your cholesterol and glucose etc. Well today we found out our results and all of my numbers were great except for my weight....well there is a news flash!!! All sarcasm aside...I did not do the program to see that I was overweight I did it in order to get my blood checked! I was happy with the results and it was motivating for me in that it will keep me going in order to make my numbers even better!
Another cool thing is that I was given a WW food scale for Christmas one year and honestly didn't use it a whole lot because I didn't take the time to learn how to use it. Well anyway, I took it out tonight and took the time to figure it out and all I can say is AWESOME!!! You can punch in foods or nutrition information on that food and place the food on the scale and wala...you have the points!!! YAY!!!
Well...I'm getting ready to wrap up my evening. I hope y'all are doing well and I don't know about the rest of you but TGIF!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Today went MUCH better!!! I was so happy to have such a wonderful supper at home. For those of you that don't know me that well we are unfortunately ones that eat out a lot! So, it was a VERY nice treat to eat at home and I look forward to doing that a lot more often. We have a program at work called smart movers to where they have you fast and check your cholesterol and glucose etc. Well today we found out our results and all of my numbers were great except for my weight....well there is a news flash!!! All sarcasm aside...I did not do the program to see that I was overweight I did it in order to get my blood checked! I was happy with the results and it was motivating for me in that it will keep me going in order to make my numbers even better!
Another cool thing is that I was given a WW food scale for Christmas one year and honestly didn't use it a whole lot because I didn't take the time to learn how to use it. Well anyway, I took it out tonight and took the time to figure it out and all I can say is AWESOME!!! You can punch in foods or nutrition information on that food and place the food on the scale and wala...you have the points!!! YAY!!!
Well...I'm getting ready to wrap up my evening. I hope y'all are doing well and I don't know about the rest of you but TGIF!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Day 7 - January 12, 2010
Well...I was actually kind of looking forward to the weigh in today until I stepped on the scale...I GAINED a frickin 1/2 pound. WHAT???? I was actually quite shocked only because this is probably one of the first times I can actually say I have been 100% honest on this go around as far as what I'm eating!! But, I am also going to move on and keep plugging along! The WW leader was so awesome and she could tell I was shocked. She reminded me that this is the first week and our bodies are adjusting etc. So...I will go full force this week and start incorporating exercise and see what next week brings.
We talked about filling foods today in our meeting and it really hit home. I'm eating my points but not with filling food so I'm always feeling hungry. My goal this week is to make sure that half of my meals are with filler foods. It's so easy to grab WW meals and deli meats but I think I need too watch that too! Wow...eating healthy takes a ton of preparation!!! CRAZY!!! No wonder we all love drive throughs!!!
Well...I don't have much more to type. I'm watching Biggest Loser so I am going to put my energy into that!!
Take care and have a GREAT night!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
We talked about filling foods today in our meeting and it really hit home. I'm eating my points but not with filling food so I'm always feeling hungry. My goal this week is to make sure that half of my meals are with filler foods. It's so easy to grab WW meals and deli meats but I think I need too watch that too! Wow...eating healthy takes a ton of preparation!!! CRAZY!!! No wonder we all love drive throughs!!!
Well...I don't have much more to type. I'm watching Biggest Loser so I am going to put my energy into that!!
Take care and have a GREAT night!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Monday, January 11, 2010
Day 6 - January 11, 2010
Good Evening to all! Man am I a stress eater! Work today was CRAZY and someone had licorice in the snack room so without even thinking I went and looked at the serving size (because it is easier to count the points then!!!) and ate 4 pieces. When I got back to my office and figured the points I found out they were 3 points. Now for some of you that may be well worth it but if I'm going to waste 3 points on stupid licorice I want it chocolate coated...NOT flavored but coated! I was thinking man I could have had a small bag of popcorn and a WW yogurt for the same amount! So I learned two things today...one...avoid the snack room esp. when stressed out and two...go to my office, take deep breaths, figure out the points and then proceed!!!
Tomorrow I go back for my 2nd week and 1st weigh in to see if any progress has been made! A part of me feels like I have gained and a part of me feels nothing. I know...it's only week 1 and I can't expect miracles!! I keep thinking my mirror will change but it hasn't! I also have to go get my blood drawn in the morning for them to check my blood sugars and cholesterol. Our work puts on a program called smart movers for free and this is part of the screening. It will be fun to do it again next year and compare the results!
Alright...I'm ending here. I'm yawning and can barely concentrate. Take special care of yourselves and stay tuned for hopefully and loss tomorrow!
Love and peace to all...Jvonne
PS...if any of you have friends, family, or acquaintances out there that you feel will benefit from this blog please feel free to pass it along. Not only is this to help me but hopefully others as well!
Tomorrow I go back for my 2nd week and 1st weigh in to see if any progress has been made! A part of me feels like I have gained and a part of me feels nothing. I know...it's only week 1 and I can't expect miracles!! I keep thinking my mirror will change but it hasn't! I also have to go get my blood drawn in the morning for them to check my blood sugars and cholesterol. Our work puts on a program called smart movers for free and this is part of the screening. It will be fun to do it again next year and compare the results!
Alright...I'm ending here. I'm yawning and can barely concentrate. Take special care of yourselves and stay tuned for hopefully and loss tomorrow!
Love and peace to all...Jvonne
PS...if any of you have friends, family, or acquaintances out there that you feel will benefit from this blog please feel free to pass it along. Not only is this to help me but hopefully others as well!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Day 5 - January 10, 2010
Holy Cow...is it really the 10th of January already??!! Where in the world does time go! If weight loss only went as fast as time then things would be GREAT!!! Today was ok. I struggled mostly this afternoon and evening. I did a couple of major no-no's tonight!! First was I went to Applebees STARVING!!! So, Brian and I were going to do the two for $20 which was great because I had the chicken Caesar salad minus the dressing; however, we got wings for the appetizer. I told myself that a "few" should be just fine and that I had extra points. Well I had 5 of them...3 more than I had planned on...and I didn't know exactly how many points they were until after the fact!!! Well for 5 of them I figured about 15 points...ouch...that is 2 meals for sure if not 2 1/2. So...I know not to go hungry and also to know my points value prior to me going anywhere!!! I found a really cool website called fatsecret.com. They have a lot of cool information and you can find foods and they have the points for you.
Other than that...things are going fine. I am going to start taking a picture once a month starting this Tuesday so that will be my 2nd weigh in. I'm not looking forward to having my pic taken in a swim suit; however, a VERY good friend of mine did this and you can really see the changes. She is an inspiration!
I hope you all had a GREAT weekend and I hope the week to come is not too crazy. Remember to take care of yourselves because you are all worth it!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
PS...I have had people share some secrets for eating, snacks, filling healthy foods etc...PLEASE continue!!!
Other than that...things are going fine. I am going to start taking a picture once a month starting this Tuesday so that will be my 2nd weigh in. I'm not looking forward to having my pic taken in a swim suit; however, a VERY good friend of mine did this and you can really see the changes. She is an inspiration!
I hope you all had a GREAT weekend and I hope the week to come is not too crazy. Remember to take care of yourselves because you are all worth it!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
PS...I have had people share some secrets for eating, snacks, filling healthy foods etc...PLEASE continue!!!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Day 4 - January 9, 2010
Well I missed blogging Day 3 so I will combine 3 and 4! Day 3 actually sucked big time! I have never struggled so hard with something in my life! It's amazing how bad your brain plays tricks on you. I went to subway on lunch break and I knew I wanted to get a turkey sub on whole wheat with veggies, olive oil and baked chips. I also knew exactly how many points it would be etc . However, the minute I got into my car my brain started saying things like this...well since you are eating baked chips and a turkey sub go ahead and get a cookie....oh...a Chocolate Chip cookie...man that sounds sooooo good...just one won't hurt....hell since you are getting one and screwing it all up you might as well get 3 because it is cheaper that way...needless to say this tape played over and over and over again until I got to subway. Once there...it intensified. Long story short I didn't cave and buy any cookies but it sucked and was very tough. I was very happy that I didn't get even one because I learned that they were 5 points for one!!
Today...day 4...has actually been a little easier. I have certainly had my cravings and wants; however, I haven't found them to be as obsessive. I am hoping to start some form of working out on Monday. I haven't really decided what I want to do yet but I know it will be something!
The other thing I noticed, well I've always known but for some reason it struck me more today, was that I have finally figured out why America has such a problem with obesity. I went grocery shopping and was irritated at how expensive it is to eat healthy. It they would reverse the whole thing and charge more for junk food then we probably wouldn't have such a problem. The money that the health care system and businesses would save would be huge and then they could pump some of that back into the food market! Just a thought but I'm pretty sure it won't happen in my life time!
Well...I think that is enough for tonight. For those of you that are into the football playoffs I hope that you were happy with the playoff games today! I was hoping the Cowboys/Eagles game would have been better but oh well!
Take care and continue to stay warm!
Love and peace to all...Jvonne
Today...day 4...has actually been a little easier. I have certainly had my cravings and wants; however, I haven't found them to be as obsessive. I am hoping to start some form of working out on Monday. I haven't really decided what I want to do yet but I know it will be something!
The other thing I noticed, well I've always known but for some reason it struck me more today, was that I have finally figured out why America has such a problem with obesity. I went grocery shopping and was irritated at how expensive it is to eat healthy. It they would reverse the whole thing and charge more for junk food then we probably wouldn't have such a problem. The money that the health care system and businesses would save would be huge and then they could pump some of that back into the food market! Just a thought but I'm pretty sure it won't happen in my life time!
Well...I think that is enough for tonight. For those of you that are into the football playoffs I hope that you were happy with the playoff games today! I was hoping the Cowboys/Eagles game would have been better but oh well!
Take care and continue to stay warm!
Love and peace to all...Jvonne
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Day 2 - January 7, 2010
Well today went better than yesterday I believe! Although I know it is only 6:30 and we have the evening to go but I think I will be fine. So, what are some things I have noticed or experienced today!? Well...the list could go on. I think the biggest thing I realized was exactly how bad I have been eating the past 6 months or so. I knew I was eating bad and unhealthy items, I just didn't realize how often or how much until I started keeping track. I had to dive into my extra points yesterday and I was shocked that I was still hungry!!! I will need to learn some tricks of keeping full as well as changing my mind set and stop thinking that I am always hungry. The other thing I just realized, or maybe I should say accepted, was that I am always looking for a quick fix! I am watching Entertainment tonight and they said, coming up, women who have lost half their size and my first thought was "Oh my, I need to watch that and see what they did"! I know what to do and I know how to do it so I don't think I need to read or listen to anything anymore! Like Nike says...Just Do It!!!
Anyway, I don't believe I will have to use any of my extra points today so that is a good feeling. I am anxious to get home so I can actually start doing a little exercise. No I'm not looking forward to exercising, I'm just looking forward to speeding up the process!! For those of you that say you love the gym or working out I have one word for you...LIARS!!!!! Just kidding...I know there are some out there that truly do enjoy it...I just do it because I know it is good for me!!
Thanks for all of your support and in a year from now I look forward to reading these beginning entries and laugh at myself!!
I hope you all have a VERY warm evening!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Anyway, I don't believe I will have to use any of my extra points today so that is a good feeling. I am anxious to get home so I can actually start doing a little exercise. No I'm not looking forward to exercising, I'm just looking forward to speeding up the process!! For those of you that say you love the gym or working out I have one word for you...LIARS!!!!! Just kidding...I know there are some out there that truly do enjoy it...I just do it because I know it is good for me!!
Thanks for all of your support and in a year from now I look forward to reading these beginning entries and laugh at myself!!
I hope you all have a VERY warm evening!
Love and peace to all....Jvonne
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Day 1 - January 6, 2010
If any of you are grammar critique rs or spelling Nazis then stop here and do not read any further!!!
Well...as I am sitting here in my hotel room in Aberdeen, due to being on call, I keep trying to come up with all of the reasons as to why I shouldn't do this! The main reason that keeps coming to my mind is shame and embarrassment. So I think back to all of the Biggest Loser contestants and think "I wonder how they must feel weighing in in front of everybody in their shorts and bra (if female). So, that was a reality check for me. I'm a firm believer that in order to progress we need to be open and honest and share with others in order to hold us accountable. So with that, I have decided to start a blog of my journey. I will be sharing some things that I would have NEVER dreamt of sharing with close friends let alone anyone who cares to read it, but I think I need to in order to move on. If you so choose to read my blogs, may you find them funny, tear jerking, frustrating, etc. but PLEASE do not ever feel sorry for me. For those of you that know me know that I am a very strong, determined person and I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. The only thing I ask is for support, encouragement, and a good kick in the ass when needed!! Through my journey, I hope to help and inspire some of you out there.
So, enough rambling already and on with the journey!
Even though I call today day 1, yesterday was actually the start! I joined Weight Watchers with some co-workers and that was an eye opener. I weighed in at a whopping 311.6 pounds. I can hear some gasps now as well as some people saying oh Jvonne how could you let yourself get that heavy. Well let me tell you, if I had the answer I probably wouldn't be this heavy! For those of you who have ever struggled with weight know that it is much easier to put on that take off and once you get some of it off it comes on VERY quick if you aren't careful! I really have no excuses or justifications other than the fact that I quit eating healthy and I quit working out! Amazing how those two things go hand in hand! So, my goal weight is 180 for now. The lowest I have ever been, that I can remember, is 211. I felt so good then and will be back there and then some!
So, day 1 started out feeling great, invigorating, and motivating; however, that feeling quickly left when I realized that I was being conscious of what I was eating instead of eating whatever I wanted. It then turned into a "this sucks" attitude! I found today that I had to check myself several times. It's ironic how I'm an addictions counselor and I'm struggling with an extremely hard one right now myself! So, I felt hungry a lot of today and I had to keep telling myself that this too will pass, drink some more water, and you will eat soon. On the Biggest Loser they always promote Extra gum and let me tell you I think I will be keeping them in business! I must say it did help; however, I'm not stupid either and I allowed my brain and stinking thinking to kick in and say "it's just gum and what good is this!" So, tonight seems to be a little better. I tell myself over and over again that this is a good thing and eventually it will become easier, not easy but easier, and I will be happy with myself once again! I think the biggest thing I will need to work on is keeping myself busy so I don't obsess over food and keeping track of EVERYTHING I eat! They said yesterday if you bite it then write it! This is hard for me because I think oh it's just one bite! Anyway, I will end here and continue on tomorrow. It's a new day and I'm looking forward to another adventure!
Love to all...Jvonne
Well...as I am sitting here in my hotel room in Aberdeen, due to being on call, I keep trying to come up with all of the reasons as to why I shouldn't do this! The main reason that keeps coming to my mind is shame and embarrassment. So I think back to all of the Biggest Loser contestants and think "I wonder how they must feel weighing in in front of everybody in their shorts and bra (if female). So, that was a reality check for me. I'm a firm believer that in order to progress we need to be open and honest and share with others in order to hold us accountable. So with that, I have decided to start a blog of my journey. I will be sharing some things that I would have NEVER dreamt of sharing with close friends let alone anyone who cares to read it, but I think I need to in order to move on. If you so choose to read my blogs, may you find them funny, tear jerking, frustrating, etc. but PLEASE do not ever feel sorry for me. For those of you that know me know that I am a very strong, determined person and I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. The only thing I ask is for support, encouragement, and a good kick in the ass when needed!! Through my journey, I hope to help and inspire some of you out there.
So, enough rambling already and on with the journey!
Even though I call today day 1, yesterday was actually the start! I joined Weight Watchers with some co-workers and that was an eye opener. I weighed in at a whopping 311.6 pounds. I can hear some gasps now as well as some people saying oh Jvonne how could you let yourself get that heavy. Well let me tell you, if I had the answer I probably wouldn't be this heavy! For those of you who have ever struggled with weight know that it is much easier to put on that take off and once you get some of it off it comes on VERY quick if you aren't careful! I really have no excuses or justifications other than the fact that I quit eating healthy and I quit working out! Amazing how those two things go hand in hand! So, my goal weight is 180 for now. The lowest I have ever been, that I can remember, is 211. I felt so good then and will be back there and then some!
So, day 1 started out feeling great, invigorating, and motivating; however, that feeling quickly left when I realized that I was being conscious of what I was eating instead of eating whatever I wanted. It then turned into a "this sucks" attitude! I found today that I had to check myself several times. It's ironic how I'm an addictions counselor and I'm struggling with an extremely hard one right now myself! So, I felt hungry a lot of today and I had to keep telling myself that this too will pass, drink some more water, and you will eat soon. On the Biggest Loser they always promote Extra gum and let me tell you I think I will be keeping them in business! I must say it did help; however, I'm not stupid either and I allowed my brain and stinking thinking to kick in and say "it's just gum and what good is this!" So, tonight seems to be a little better. I tell myself over and over again that this is a good thing and eventually it will become easier, not easy but easier, and I will be happy with myself once again! I think the biggest thing I will need to work on is keeping myself busy so I don't obsess over food and keeping track of EVERYTHING I eat! They said yesterday if you bite it then write it! This is hard for me because I think oh it's just one bite! Anyway, I will end here and continue on tomorrow. It's a new day and I'm looking forward to another adventure!
Love to all...Jvonne
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